Hopeless

You once told me to call you

And i did

And we talked

But it was awkward

Didn't know what to say

I was a stuttering mess

And so were you

We were not meant to be

Yet i prayed

I wished, I longed for you.

"Just give me him God!"I asked.

He never did.

I know why, We are incompatible.

I need to grow.

You need to live.

It's been long since I saw your face.

10 months to be exact.

I ask myself have I truly moved on?

What if I see him and

it all comes crashing back

What if I never do.

I think you ruined me.